Just had this on my mind and wanted to share it with you all.
A few years back, I was guilty of making some bad decisions in my life. I have previously said somewhere on this site...that I have always wanted to please God. I mean that. Forgive me for re-hashing from a previous text...but I need to.
Since I was a young girl, I was taught that God needed a vessel to do His work through. So, I always sought to be a vessel for Him. I would do ANYTHING....to be used. This went on for years.
Then a very strange time in my life occurred. Not that I thought I was smarter than the Lord, but I chose to strike out and see what life was like "out there". Fell on my face, made lots of mistakes....then finally came to my senses and went back to church.
For six solid months...this was my most sincere prayer...
"God, I have broken this vessel. It is scarred and marred by my own hands. It is in pretty bad shape. But God, if there is SOMETHING still, that I can do for You...if there is ANYTHING that you can still use me for...I am willing. Use me."
Sounded pretty sincere...didn't it? I meant it. Word for Word.
Well, I am a "music" person. Always singing or playing, or listening to something....
One day, it was quiet. I was ironing. No music. No crying baby. No TV....nothing. I wasn't even praying. Just simply ironing. And it was like (I don't know how else to describe this....) God spoke to my spirit...with a very simple thought...
"When I touch something....I make it WHOLE!"
I sat my iron down and began to cry. For the first time in probably years....I didn't feel "broken" anymore. HE touched ME. I was still on the potters wheel...right where I belonged. I felt like He still had a job for me. I still do.
I was thinking of this moment while driving home from work tonight. Because I have to remove the veil and be honest with you all...I found myself feeling pretty broken again lately.
But, this was refreshing. Because if He was able to do it once...I have no doubt that He can do it again.
God is SO good. I get so worried that my simple words will seem like hollow words of praise to Him. I just love him.
I appreciate you all, too. I thank God for my new friends!