Hey russ juss remember that when your down to nothing, God is up to something...bro you know what it takes seriously? is determanation...you have got to make up your mind stand up and live for God bro...every day just tell God hello talk to him tell him how you feel talk to people in your church....if you want you can call me....as a matter of fact do that bro i will send you my phone number...remember this is your life at stake, its very important... and i will do what i can to help bro....just check your private messages and my # will be there....God Bless