MAYBE HES BEEN PRAYING, needing carpet time.guys need their ''caves'' to think about issues etc. its not always personal against us chics.

yeah he said he'd come... I'm guessin that sumthin musta come up.

can you call him and see if ok? LIFE HAPPENS WHEN YUR IN A HURRY IT SEEMS. [CAR TROUBLE ETC].hope not case here.

he never answers his phone... I'll see him Sunday... and if something was wrong he prolly woulda called my dad... I sent him an email and asked him to call if he couldn't come, but he didn't, so Idk what happened

well, seems like its up to God , maybe prayer will help soothe yur nerves. Ill say one for your friend.

thankie! I'm sure everything is fine! Sean's kool... he's "dad"

OH GOOD! hes ok. [;

Today was a long day! It doesn't feel like it should be the weekend. It doesn't feel like it should be 6:00! This weekend is going to be over before I know it! I'm getting frustrated with school, and church. I would talk to Sean (my youth pastor), but he's one of my problems. I just wanna dissapear.

well, you can talk to us here. we are all ears and full of prayers for our dear ones . [;

yeah I know! Thanks! I'm just kinda frustrated, and ready to get highschool over with! I hate it. Idk how the hey I'm gonna make it through the next 4 1/2 yrs! So many relationships have changed... I used to be able to talk to my youth minister about everything, but since then he's developed his "opinions" about me, and they keep me from talking to him a lot. I feel like I live this secret life that only 2 people (Stephanie and Whittney) know about. I'm too good at wearing my mask, and I'm sick of it. But like my dad says... I can't give people amunition to critisize. So I guess I don't have a choice.

words do hurt more than sticks and stones. he may be right about ammunition. re' criticism. why give them the time of day, benefit of hurting you again. make it not matter what they think. find another opinion from those you respect. even if thats yur own family. youhave better things to do than set yurself up for their mocking. keep that attitude with you. youre better than that and deserve to be treated with respect! [; THIS IS WHAT MY BULLDOG BRO HAS SAID TO ME. I FINALLY HEARD HIM.

I don't let it bother me most of the time. When it comes to name calling that's when I get hurt. But I don't really care if so-and-so thinks I'm a bad Christian because I don't go to Sunday School. I know what God wants from me. I can make more of my time if I spend it alone thinking and praying instead of sitting in the stuffy classroom listening to things I already know.

do they attend your church? Maybe invite them , could change their view . some folks are nasty from being insecure. like prahnas[from todays sermon]. parahnas i mean. agressive fish. some lash out to mask their fears.

they do go to church...they go to my church...

oh ok. could be insecurity on their part. wanting everyone to be like them, afraid of anyone different or unique, individual, special[like you] who stand out , in a good way. you would make a great leader! competition for them. you can think for yourself and that scares peer groups . that they cant control you. makes them feel powerless.

dude! sounds good to me! I hate peer groups and I hate being controled...

AH. SOUNDS LIKE LEADERSHIP TO ME. HEHE [; just dont burn any bridges before you cross em, you may need these folks later when theyll be hiring or you will be. [;

My witness @ school= ruined because I either haven't been there or I've been hanging w/ the biggest pot heads there....

good news is I've been there for 2 straight weeks... 2 of those days I was in my PJs but that's ok...

YOU LIVE ANOTHER DAY, CAN CHANGE IMAGE. its not the end. trust God. He can turn bad into good. if we let Him. [;

i hope so